He has the best giggle...smile...kind heart...
Today, he turns 4. I cannot imagine my life without this baby boy. I often think about what my kids will be when they are adults. What kinds of lives they will live, the people they will marry. I cannot wait to see what Carson does. He is truly amazing.
My sweet Carson -
Four years ago I brought you into this world. A month early, mind you. Even then you were in a hurry to meet everyone! I won’t scar you with all of the details, but I will tell you that you came into the world fast– the doctor barely made it into the room. You were the smallest baby I had ever held. Absolutely perfect.
You have brought me nothing but pure joy, excitement and love since that very first moment. Watching you grow, taking in the world around you, inquisitive and oh so busy!
As all mothers do I have SO many wishes for you! At the age of four, these are the ones that stand out in my mind.
I wish for you to always have a kind heart. Handle it with care. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that you are too sensitive. You are the first to hold your sister’s hand when she is scared, the first to run for the band-aids when someone is hurt, the first to panic if one of the twins starts to cry. I have often heard you tell other parents how much you "love their cute baby". I couldn’t live without your affection and kindness. Your tender hugs and beautiful smile remind me of the treasures you bring into my world.
Don’t ever apologize for who you are, for what you want, for how hard you have worked or where you want to go in life. I don't doubt you will be a hard worker. After all, you are your father's son. ALWAYS stand your ground and be proud of you. Do not live to make others happy... or try to measure up to someone else’s expectations. Just be CARSON. Beautiful Carson.
I wish for you to continue to know and love God. I pray that you will seek God's guidance and direction in your daily life. Continue reading His word...learning His offerings and surround yourself with Godly people as well. Live your faith, share your faith and never waiver in your commitment to God.
I wish you wins AND losses. As much as I would love to see you succeed in everything you do… as much as I believe in your gifts, I must wish you challenges. For it is within the losses, the 3rd, 4th and 5th places, and the failures that your character will be built. As your mom it is MY job to do my best to guide you through these moments. If everything was to be easy for you, you would be ill-prepared for the ‘real’ world. I promise you, life is not always easy. But I will be there to help guide you every step of the way. Even when you no longer want to hold my hand...I'll be right there.
I wish for you to follow your HEART. Your dreams: follow them. Your family: treasure them. Your friends: be loyal to them. Your fears: accept them and allow them to make you strong. Your passion: LIVE IT.
Seek happiness. Every single day find something that makes you happy and do it. Be it big or small – an act of kindness, listening to a song you love, calling a friend, drag racing with your dad - it quite simply doesn’t matter. What matters is that you spend a portion of each day smiling, laughing and enjoying life.
I wish to be here for each of your moments. The sweet little 6 pound baby that wanted into this world early. I want to watch you grow...live life and see what you become.
Carson you are what pure joy looks like. You are dirty and messy, you snuggle and love me. I love when you grab me and say "I better get that hug now, momma." I adore that you sleep with 6 stuffed animals and a blanket. I love how you always tell me "see you in the morning!" as I tuck you into bed.
"I love you, my Mommy"...that is what really gets me.
Happy 4th Birthday to my special little boy!
Love you to the moon and back!
Mommy
XOXOXO
